vail memories



By Leigh Ann Speake
February, 2016



Skiing in Vail is always an emotional experience for me. Our trip to Vail during Christmas break of 1999 was the last family ski trip we took before Nick went on to hit the slopes in Heaven. It was also the last time mom skied, the last time we skied as a family.







After that trip it was 10 years before I went skiing again. Saying I took a break to get married and have kids is a convenient excuse, but the reality is that I was just too sad to want to go without Nick. It felt wrong somehow to go and enjoy something that he wasn’t able to do anymore, and I felt like I would write over and forget the memories if I made new ones in the same places. This is how I felt for a long time after he died, but with most places I didn’t have the choice to avoid them. In 2009 I returned to Vail with some wonderful friends, and I realized that I had forgotten how much I loved skiing, especially in this place. It was really tough at times, knowing that the last time I skied certain slopes that Nick was right beside me, but it was also amazing being able to feel that close to him when he had been gone for so long, having a place to remember so vividly the fun we had together. On that 2009 trip I think Dad & I both cried all the way down Blue Ox, one of Nick’s favorite runs. Remembering laughing until tears were frozen to my cheeks as Nick, Brandon & I walked through Vail Village, walking the same streets, and picturing him there all those years ago, I was surprised to find was actually a good feeling, and only slightly as sad as I thought it would be.





Now every time I visit Vail I feel like I can almost see him, hear his voice laughing or imitating some famous person, taste the snow dust from his skis as he pulled some turkey little brother move and sprayed me with a sliding stop. This is one of the places I feel the closest to him because I don’t have that many memories here without him to overwrite the ones we made together. It is with all of these thoughts that I completely appreciate and love every minute of being in this place, of skiing down the slopes that we shared on that last family ski trip.





Now, as Dad, Caitlin & I get to share this place again, I am thankful to have these kinds of memories with my family, both as a child and now as an adult. Only after many years did I finally realize that the memories don’t fade as easily as I feared. After Dad’s, Caitlin’s & my ski trip to Telluride last winter came so close to ending in tragedy for both Dad (heart attack) & Caitlin (cliff crash), I will not be taking any of this special time we have together for granted. I am so thankful for every moment we have together, for every memory we make together.





orange beach marina memory



By Leigh Ann Speake



When my brother Nick & I were growing up Orange Beach Marina was like a second home to us. We loved walking the docks, looking at the boats, learning from the salty charter boat captains, watching the tourists, imagining what was lurking below the surface of the oily black water, getting frozen treats at the dock store, smelling the fishy breezes, perusing the cleaning stations to see what was being caught, talking to the deck hands to see what lures were working, eavesdropping on the boat brokers working deals. We both loved working on the boat and helping Dad any way that we could.







Dad’s buddy, & resident OB boat broker Jim Greene, cleaned out his storage shed one day. He had an old deer mount that was looking rough, so he had cut out the antlers & thrown the deer head onto his trash pile. Nick & I got a brilliant idea. Amongst the creatures at the marina were some very large wharf rats. Dad had a 41’ Viking Convertible at the time, and our slip had a trash can directly in front of it.





Nick & I decided to put the deer head in the bushes behind the trash can. We then camped out on the flybridge of the Viking so we could watch people react. It was the best kind of entertainment, and we were rolling in laughter for hours, but Dad’s reaction was the best by far.





After emptying all the trash cans on the boat & making several trips to the big trash can without noticing anything out of the ordinary, he made one final trip & was so surprised and startled by the giant “rat” in the bushes that he jumped back screaming & almost fell in the water. We thought it was the funniest thing we’d ever seen.





april fools day



By Leigh Ann Speake
4/1/2020



You know when you're young and you get really excited, like so excited you're physically vibrating? Well, being a kid from Alabama, waking up to snow on the ground was one of the most special treats, one that filled you with that kind of excitement. I still get a mild version of it as an adult when I wake up to snow on the ground, even when I'm in places it's supposed to snow.





Generally speaking my brother and I were like any other teenagers, unmotivated to get out of bed in the mornings, even on a day we were starting a road trip for spring break. On this trip our family of 4 would be driving through Mississippi, Louisiana, and Oklahoma to go to a convention for Dad's work, then on to see cousins in Texas before looping back to Alabama.





As a family goes, we were a close one. We enjoyed each other's company, and we had so much fun together. Our family spent a lot of time in the car, traveling to Orange Beach every other weekend, some long road trips to South Florida, trips to Washington, DC, North Carolina, Kentucky, Tennessee, Texas, etc. My mom and brother joked around all the time, pushing each other's buttons, usually until one of them took it too far and they ended up mad at each other. Nick would always sit behind Mom in the car. She would reach back and grab his knee, which was very ticklish. He would kick her seat in retaliation, and we would all be in tears laughing, before they eventually got mad because neither knew when to stop.





One time Nick and I filled the entire back seat with stuffed animals, ready to take them on our adventure. Dad freaked out and made us put them back in the house. We tried to sneak our cat Killer into the car amongst the stuffed animals once, and after that Killer thought he was supposed to get in the car when we were packing it up to go on trips. Typical cat, he also tried to pack himself into our suitcases every time too! Dad used to say that our clutter made him feel like he was traveling with a band of gypsies, but we never let that stop us from loading up games, toys, etc. so we could be entertained and surrounded in a cocoon of road trip fun.





This was before the time of electronic entertainment devices, so we would eventually get bored, no matter how much entertainment we packed for ourselves. The boredom would lead to Nick and me getting into shoving or finger poking fights, or ridiculous arguments. Mom would pull down the vanity mirror to watch us from the front seat. She would tell us that we couldn't cross the line of the fabric seam on the back seat, look at each other, or talk to each other, officially pitting us together against her and ending our fights almost instantly.





This morning was starting out like any other teenager-dragging morning. Dad was ready to go, and we weren't cooperating. So, he thought it would be funny to wake us up in true April Fool's Day fashion. Did I mention that we were leaving for our trip on April 1st? He came racing into our rooms yelling, "It's snowing! It's snowing!"





Well, of course, we jumped out of our beds, raced to the windows, ripped back our curtains... to see bright, green grass everywhere! The turkey! It worked. He got us good. We were up, full of adrenaline, and not long after that we were on the road.





Well, Nick and I didn't think his joke was that funny. Most people don't think pranks are funny when they're the victim, and we were no different. We decided we would get revenge. We had driven for about 8 hours, and all of a sudden Nick, in a very convincing, overly excited voice, yelled, "Killer!!!", like he was the most excited kid on the planet that his cat had stowed away in the car with us.





Dad immediately hit the brakes and started muttering under his breath about finding an out of town vet, etc. About 2 or 3 minutes later he suddenly realized that Mom wasn't participating in his freak out. When he started to look around, wondering about that, Mom, Nick and I burst out laughing. I guess we shouldn't have shared our revenge plans with her, but we feared the mom-wrath if we left her out, so cutting our prank a little short was still worth it! This is still one of my favorite road trip memories!